Why I need to move from Turkey?

Because I didn't feel comfortable here with those people. They disturbing me. They are rude, ignorant and uncouth. I need to move because I'm not belong here. I just stuck with those people. I can speak English good or bad. Its really enough for other country. Let me explain why I stuck in here? Because of my family. They need my salary for living so I can not take radical changes in my life. This means I'M NOT FREE PERSON. This means I need a solution.

If I will be free person. I will move to another country. I find a job good or bad. Doesn't matter. I make money for living. I'd like to save money. Maybe I can do it or not its not a big deal.

First of all I don't like Turkish movies. I don't like Turkish Music. Old Turkish songs are good but every old things are good. Old Turkey was good but look at now. We have a president. Everybody likes him. I said everybody but lets make it %50 of Turkish people. I don't like Turkish politicians also. We have terrorist member of council. We have racist member of council. We have rapist member of council. We have bribe taker member of council. We have everything in our council on the bad way, not like Canadian Council or Canadian President.

Why did I write it down in English?

So don't think my English is very well. I made a lot of grammar mistakes. I know but my point is did you get me? This is only matter. If you understand me, believe me I feel better. I made a rhyme just second ago :) I write it down in English because foreigners will also understand me. I don't need Turkish people who understand me. They will cheer me up if I write it down in Turkish. They will criticize me. I don't need their fucking comments. Than I will say thank you for your empty words. Turkey doesn't going better after your words. You are just talker nothing more. I'm just writer I should be more of that. Thats why I write it down in English.


Also I write it down to the future. I send message to the Universe. If they get me true. I want to move to America, south of America will be fine. I love their lifestyle. I watched a lot of movies, series, stand-up shows. I saw their beautiful houses. I saw their single lives. They don't disturb each other. They have respect to their lives. They don't involve to their lives. They don't care about what you do, what you drink, what time you come to home.

I ask a lot of my friends. All same answers. The question is WHY DID YOU COME BACK HERE FROM AMERICA? They said I miss my family, wait did you say I miss my family? WHATTT? Are you fucking serious? They will pass soon. They don't live with you forever. They will die soon. Really, believe me. Second ryhme MFs! You need to think yourself when they left you.

One of my friend miss his family and he decided to come back to Turkey. He went there for study. He bought flight ticket. Get in a plane. Plane landed to Paris and DUNK! He said himself what did I do? Am I crazy? But its too late. He was transfer Paris to Istanbul. Plane landed Turkey. He went home, knock the door. Mother opened door. She saw him and he said "MAMA I'M BACK". He opened arms for the hug. Mother slap him so hard. He was shock. Mother said "Are you fucking insane? Did you eat your brain with a cheese and bread? Why did you come back?" He can not believe that, he didn't expect that. Then he really understand he made a mistake. Lifetime mistake. A Huge Mistake. Fucking Mistake. And now he realize what kind of mistake he made. Its to late for him. He married in Turkey. Now they both want to move from here. A lot of people wants to move. A lot of my friend who born and raised in Turkey. I want to move also. I have chance I know.

I'm not belong here. I realize it when I come my twenty. At my twenties I searched a lot but there is no way to move with cashless. Basically they don't need beggar or thief. Thats why I find a job in international hotel in Turkey. I save money. Now I'm ready but my family... They are not ready. Also exchange rates are so high for dollar. Our money rate is very low. But you know its a risk. Life is a poker game. If you don't take risk. You can not win this game. You will lose every hand. Small, small you will be broke. I know I need to move before its too late. You know I will take that risk. I'm not gonna die, I know. Maybe end of the story I will come back here but I'm not gonna say why did I do this. I will never say I regret of my decision. I will say it was a good trip :)

I want to be in movie industry, I want to have a bar&pub whatever. In my concept. I want to be scenarist, I want to be book writer. I'd like to write something like that. My science-fiction side is really strong. This is my dream life. In real life I work 8-9 hours in a day, 6 day in a week, just one day off which day GOD knows. I can not plan something. I don't have social life. Let me tell you one more story of my life;

I was in vacation in south side of Turkey. Always hot. Good for sea&sun vacation. Whatever I was in a good hotel near by the beach. I work-out everyday. I had very well shape body. I was walk in sea side. My feet in water. Its looks like sport but I stare beautiful girls on sunbed. I oiled myself. I was look like "wow very shiny guy". After than I made eye contact with beautiful blondie, skinny girl. One tour passed. Two tour passed. I shorted my distance than I said to myself if she still look at you, you need to drink two or three shots of fake hotel vodka and you need to meet with her. Everything is fine. End of the third tour she wasn't there I thought she sick of it and leave. In the same day of that evening she was sitting with her friends and drink alcohol, I'm also. We are in the same standards. I stand up  and went their table and I said "Good evening, may I join to you?" Then they said "Of course." I sit there. They try to know me. Asking questions. They were shocked when they hear "I'm Turkish." They said "You are very polite, funny guy you can not be Turkish." I thought I don't know what your parents teach you but we are not like Arabic people and I said these sentence to them. And they laughed so hard. But this is not the point, the point is I met with them so easily. In Turkey if you saw a girl sitting with her friends and you try to meet with them they will say "Are you pervert? Who are you? Why did you come to us?" or if you go to girl directly and say I would like to meet with you as a friend. She think you will rape her. Its funny but true. So I can not show that courage to Turkish girls because if some Turkish girl yelling like "Ooo rapist. You son of a bitch. Get of me!!" Every Turkish people beat you up like a crazy. I can not handle that. Thats why I don't have friend from Turkey.

As you can see its really hard to live in Turkey. You can not make money. You can make better than Arabic countries but not like European or American people. You can not go to holiday very easily. You can not visit other countries. I know its also hard to make a money in Europe or America but in Turkey hardest believe me. Our money is shit. If you have dollar triple for Turkish Lira, 3.5 for single Euro. Whose life is so hard huh tell me? You can make money in your country and come to Turkey like a king. But if I make money in Turkey I can not come to your country like a king, I can come like a slave.

So as you can see I need to move. And when I move I will send you a postcards because every foreigners make like this :D Love people...